Trigger Warning: My baby is starting kindergarten. Mommy tears are going to happen.
My Baby is Starting Kindergarten. I want someone to pinch me and wake me up from this dream. I have to be dreaming. I know some Moms have been counting down the days until the first day of school. I’m doing the opposite. I want time to stop and stand still.
Here’s a letter that a wrote to him….
How can it be time already that you are starting kindergarten? It seems like I just had you. How can it be time for you to go off to school full time already? Aren’t you just 2 years old still?
I was so ready for this long summer we were going to have. I had visions of long summer days lounging or doing nothing- or days where I’d spend with just you giving you my undivided attention soaking every bit of you in.
I wanted this summer to last forever. Sadly, it was the shortest summer in record books.
Last year when I took you with me to drop off big sister in 4th grade, I told myself not to but I peeked over at the Moms and Dads dropping off their kids in kindergarten. I watched friends of mine walking in the halls bawling. I held onto your little hand a little tighter and was thankful I had one more year to treasure with you.
Even though starting kindergarten is so exciting and fun it’s sad for Mommy. It’s an ending of a chapter. You are my baby, my last child and things will be different now.
Gone are the days we can stay in our pj’s and have breakfast at 9:00. I’ll miss my walking buddy and making you lunch and wondering what big sister is doing at school.
I think what I’ll miss the most are the simple things. The times spent running around in the car during the day running back and forth to the store or speech. Sometimes we’d pull over and stop at a park just because the weather was nice.
We’ve spent a lot of time together the last few years. You’ve been my little “go” buddy, always on the go with me.
Now I’ll be wondering what you are doing all day, wishing I could see what is going on in your classroom. As a former elementary school teacher, I have a pretty good idea 🙂
As you are counting down your last few days and are so excited I’m excited too-but inside I’m sad.
The good news is that I know I will get through this. I know you are going to have so much fun and have a great year. Just don’t mind me as I wear my big sunglasses and don’t make eye contact with anyone.
To my baby starting kindergarten-
I can’t believe the time has come. I would give anything to have one more year with you. I’ll try and do what I’m supposed to and not let you see me cry. Forgive me if I give you one more hug (or 100) or squeeze your hand a few extra times.
For now, I’ll just be counting down the hours until it’s time to see your sweet face at the pickup line. It’s going to seem like an eternity.