Trigger Warning: My baby is starting kindergarten. Mommy tears are going to happen.
My Baby is Starting Kindergarten. I want someone to pinch me and wake me up from this dream. I have to be dreaming. I know some Moms have been counting down the days until the first day of school. I’m doing the opposite. I want time to stop and stand still.
Here’s a letter that a wrote to him….
How can it be time already that you are starting kindergarten? It seems like I just had you. How can it be time for you to go off to school full time already? Aren’t you just 2 years old still?
I was so ready for this long summer we were going to have. I had visions of long summer days lounging or doing nothing- or days where I’d spend with just you giving you my undivided attention soaking every bit of you in.
I wanted this summer to last forever. Sadly, it was the shortest summer in record books.
Last year when I took you with me to drop off big sister in 4th grade, I told myself not to but I peeked over at the Moms and Dads dropping off their kids in kindergarten. I watched friends of mine walking in the halls bawling. I held onto your little hand a little tighter and was thankful I had one more year to treasure with you.
Even though starting kindergarten is so exciting and fun it’s sad for Mommy. It’s an ending of a chapter. You are my baby, my last child and things will be different now.
Gone are the days we can stay in our pj’s and have breakfast at 9:00. I’ll miss my walking buddy and making you lunch and wondering what big sister is doing at school.
I think what I’ll miss the most are the simple things. The times spent running around in the car during the day running back and forth to the store or speech. Sometimes we’d pull over and stop at a park just because the weather was nice.
We’ve spent a lot of time together the last few years. You’ve been my little “go” buddy, always on the go with me.
Now I’ll be wondering what you are doing all day, wishing I could see what is going on in your classroom. As a former elementary school teacher, I have a pretty good idea 🙂
As you are counting down your last few days and are so excited I’m excited too-but inside I’m sad.
The good news is that I know I will get through this. I know you are going to have so much fun and have a great year. Just don’t mind me as I wear my big sunglasses and don’t make eye contact with anyone.
To my baby starting kindergarten-
I can’t believe the time has come. I would give anything to have one more year with you. I’ll try and do what I’m supposed to and not let you see me cry. Forgive me if I give you one more hug (or 100) or squeeze your hand a few extra times.
For now, I’ll just be counting down the hours until it’s time to see your sweet face at the pickup line. It’s going to seem like an eternity.
Love,
Mommy
aileencooks says
Cue the tears! ? I’m sad just thinking about sending my littlest to kindergarten. Luckily, I have a few years left. Enjoy those last few days of summer, mama!
Shannon says
It’s just awful! I know some are ready for their kids to go back but I am just heartbroken! I hate change!!!!
Patsy says
Wowza gal….what a gift you have in your expressing your feelings…keep writing and just know if Gigi goes with you, you’re gonna need an entire box of Kleenex…I send love to all of you…Patsy
Shannon says
She cannot come with me! That would be awful!!! XoXo
Lisa J O'Driscoll says
It’s funny because my husband and I were just talking about how I was never one of those moms that teared up at sending my kids to Kindergarten. My youngest was so over the top excited to go to Kindergarten last year that she had us laughing the entire morning!
Cue to yesterday: I dropped my 10 year old off at summer camp…for a WEEK! I was totally bawling as we pulled out of the camp, leaving her behind. I know she’s going to have fun but it was SO hard for me! I guess that was my own version of Kindergarten 🙂
Shannon says
Aww! I wish I would be laughing when dropping off my baby to kinder!!! Enjoy your week while the oldest is at camp!!